After Abortion: Susan's Testimony


Susan Carpenter McMillan, a long time feminist and activist, received international acclaim in 1986 when she spearheaded a campaign which gave "Baby Jesse" a much needed heart transplant. Susan has been an active media spokesperson since 1980, appearing on more than 4,000 radio and television shows ranging from Donahue to Politically Incorrect and she has guest hosted CNN and other media programmes. Susan was also a commentator from 1991 to 1994 on KABC TV Channel 7 News. She was appointed by the Board of Supervisors as a Commissioner on the Los Angeles County Commission for Women, where she currently heads the Los Angeles Rape Task Force.

Susan's Testimony 

"I remember that horrible day 21 years ago. The drive to the abortion clinic, the waiting, the other women, those last seconds of consciousness before the anesthesia set in, lying alone on the gurney as I placed my hands on my stomach and inwardly screamed "I'm sorry. I'm so, so sorry" As I drifted into unconsciousness, I remembered feebly pulling the hospital gown down and sliding it between my lets, semi-consciously hoping that then they couldn't get to my baby.

My deep pain about the unnecessary death of a child. It was like reading an obituary. I'd close my eyes and see this tiny helpless little baby peacefully floating in amniotic fluid, did it struggle, did it die quickly...oh, how I hurt. My eldest daughter's response..."Mom, you knew I always wanted an older brother or sister, so why did you kill them?...I had no answer.

I know millions and millions of women across this country feel as I do about abortion, we all somehow know deep down inside that we alone made a horrible decision and no coined phrase about choice and rights or the denial of biological and foetal facts can ever erase the truth. For we as mothers instinctively know during those still moments of aloneness, that we ended the life of a separate human being growing inside of each and every one of us."