Back in 2009 I found myself in difficult situation. I became homeless and had to live in a hostel for two months. While trying get back on my feet I befriended an man who was a good bit older than me. We became very close and started a relationship, but then I found out he was an heroin addict.
Shortly afterwards I found out I was pregnant. I was unemployed was not ready for a baby. In the shock of it all, I went straight to doctor and requested an abortion as I didn't feel I go could go ahead with the pregnancy.
As I sat in the doctor and told her my circumstances, she said she did not think it was the best thing to go ahead with. However, everyone in my family was backing me to go ahead with the abortion.
But I realised I could not go ahead with it, I didn’t have the heart to do it. I listened to my heart, even though it was struggle throughout the pregnancy.
When I decided to keep the baby I kept myself away from the world and the father of the baby crying for months. I would only get out the bed to eat. I went into a deep darkness. When I came out of it, my baby’s father told me he was going to go to rehab so I wanted to help him as best as I could. He had to wait a long time for a place in treatment centre. I went to all the meetings and let him live with me because I didn't have my father in my life growing up so wanted to make sure my unborn son had the best he could possibly have. I wanted him to have what I didn’t have.
But then he started drinking heavily and became very abusive. I had to leave that volatile situation for me and for the baby, so I kicked him out. Then I went into early labour from the sheer stress.
Jakob was born weighing just 5lbs. He was a perfect angel. I didn't want him out of my sight. I fell in love with him more and more each today.
Five years later I have the most beautiful caring loving boy God could ever given me. He is the best thing to ever happen to me. Looking back the best decision I ever made that I didn't go ahead with the death penalty for my unborn son. He changed my life all for the better. He's an amazing little boy. Everyone that meets him just falls in love with him too.
Things are so much better now. I live in a lovely home near the sea, and am engaged to be married. My life has become so much better - something I would not have thought possible when I was considering abortion. I love the saying. "I thank God from protecting me from what I thought I wanted, and blessing me with what I didn’t know I needed". Having Jakob saved my life, because I choose life for both me and my son.